3.8.22

Hello my little bean -

Time has been stuck on fast forward the past few months. I’ve got a lot to catch you up on. First and foremost, I know you already know this in real life but it feels weird to break the news to you here that your grandpa passed away. My dad.

He got sick at the start of December. His heart stopped working while he was at home with Grandma and he was rushed to the hospital. For a couple of days he wasn’t awake and the only thing keeping him with us was the machines. Then he woke up and seemed to be doing just a little bit better but he wasn’t himself. I flew up to New York a few times throughout the month to be there with him and Grandma. We thought things were looking okay but then his brain started to bleed, which happens sometimes when your heart stops. After that, there wasn’t much that could be done. He ended up passing away on New Year’s Eve, December 31, 2021 - just a few days before his birthday. Mom and I went up to New York for his wake and funeral and you stayed here with Grandma (mom’s mom). I can’t ever truly explain how much your grandpa loved you. My greatest regret in life is that he never got the chance to be with you as much as he wanted to. But he loved you so so so much baby, I promise you. He was such a proud grandpa. He’d call you red and he’d rub your hand on his chin like he used to do when I was little. He was the kindest, most gentle giant and you would have loved having his laugh in your life. I’m sorry you never got the chance to know him. I need to take a beat because I’m a mess talking about him.

I’ll be back, promise.

Love you big time,

Dad