10.14.19
Hey shorty –
It’s Monday and work is quiet. Columbus Day so we have clients out of the office and our partner agency is closed today. Kind of nice to have a chill day but now I’m racking my brain trying to think of things I’ve wanted to get done that I haven’t had time for. I think I might try to run and get a haircut later since we leave Friday for Vegas. Then me and mom are gonna eat dinner and head to Target for last minute stuff we need. Tomorrow night it looks like I’ll have basketball. Wednesday night I’m getting my tan on for Vegas. I need to figure out when I’m gonna hit the gym. Might have to be the kind of week where I go in the morning before work.
I’ve really been slacking lately on the fitness/eating well front. It’s really hard to be consistently disciplined. And unfortunately, I immediately notice a difference in my belly area if I don’t eat clean as fuck. If I have bread or any kind of carb, I get my love handles back. Time for the stark reality of the fact that I won’t have abs in time for Vegas. Honestly, really disappointing. And I only have myself to hold accountable. I’ve made poor food choices and I’ve been lazy, using the fact that mom wants me to stay home with her as an easy excuse to avoid the gym. But as always, I need to remember not to be too hard on myself because this is a lifelong journey – not just a moment in time. And if, on average, I can stay consistent and healthy and mindful, my actions will have a positive impact. I want to be a good role model for you. I want you to see success firsthand so you can learn to emulate it.
In other news, you’re the size of a head of lettuce today and approx. 15 inches and 2.25 pounds. Twelve weeks to go until we meet you! Mom is having lots of back pain lately. I felt real bad, she called me during the walk to get lunch and she could barely push through. Vegas should be interesting since I’m sure we’ll be walking a lot. Time to dial up the crocs lol.
We’ve been turning our focus to cars lately since we’re in the 7th month and that Scion is almost impossible to get in and out of. Mom’s been feeling the Volkswagon Atlas, which would be really awesome. Just not sure how affordable it’s going to be. We checked this morning and we officially have $50K in the bank! (Not counting retirement funds). Fingers crossed big time that I get this promotion at the end of the month or at least a healthy little pay increase/bonus. Would be pretty damn helpful. I’m scared about money if we’re being honest. I just want to have enough to give you the life mom and I dream about. On our drive this weekend to the apple/pumpkin picking we passed so many farms. I would freaking love to live on a nice piece of land with a few horses. Give you a life where you don’t have to ride the bus with stinky, angry dirtbags. And then when you’re an adult you can decide if that’s what you’re interested in. No matter how much money we make, it never feels like it’s enough. Almost like the system is designed to put you into debt unless you have a job where you’re making $250K or more. Between mom and I making about $170K it still doesn’t feel like enough. Maybe I’m just overly cautious. I KNOW that people do a lot who make a lot less and that we are INCREDIBLY fortunate but jeez does life beat you down. We’re really lucky but I want to be even MORE lucky haha.
Alright, I should probably get some work done. Give your mom a kiss today.
Love you big time,
Dad
P.S. If I haven’t shown you the song Frozen Creek by Circa Survive yet, stop what you’re doing and go listen to it. So beautiful and perfect.
