1.8.20

Hello my love -

Wednesday and we’re still waiting on you. Everyone I talk to asks how mom is doing and if there’s been any progress. I gotta say, and maybe I shouldn’t admit this to you, but I’m trying to savor every last moment of just mom and I. We have such an amazing relationship and I’m scared of what it will be like once you’re here. Obviously not scared enough not to make the decision to become parents. More scared like right before you have to get a shot and you think it’s gonna hurt real bad. I’ve never felt like this before - where I want something so bad but it also terrifies me and there’s no way to undo it. Crazy. I wonder if you’ll feel the same way when you become a parent or if you’ll be all in without fear. I think part of it is about how much your mom and I adore each other and love our little life. I don’t think everyone has that level of love, and I think we’re real lucky that we do. Speaking of mom, she woke up real early this morning and went back to sleep about 2 hours ago. I’ve been working. Unless you make an appearance, I’m scheduled to get my hair cut later today so I look fresh for your ass.

Since she’s sleeping I stole a couple photos we took on her phone last night. The wait continues!

Love you big time,

Dad