8.1.19

Hi smelly butt –

Back to the grind. Normal work day, not much to highlight. Still sad about my man Shamus but I’m happy that he’s not in pain any more. I still find myself getting the crying sensation sometimes when I think about him, but it never really becomes a cry. Grandma sent me a few funny photos of him, and I was looking on my old laptop last night of some good pictures and videos.

Mom put up a really nice post on Instagram about Shay. She got a video of him barking and another one of me giving him a kiss. She’s been great through this and I know she’s really sad too.

This weekend we’re going to get together with Joe and Michelle. I wonder if you’ll be friends with Bennett. Maybe you already know him. I still haven’t quite figured out when I want to give you these letters. I think I want to give them to mom after your born, but I think it would be cool to give these to you when you’re older. Maybe like 18ish. I’m also insanely impatient so who knows if I can wait that long.

I can’t believe it’s August already. You’re going to be here so soon and mom and I really need to figure out where the fuck we’re gonna live lol. I’m taking her on a date tomorrow. I booked a reservation at two restaurants, Sea in Brooklyn and The Richmond on Staten. We’ll see which one she’s feeling. Can never tell how she’ll feel when she gets home from work, so I wanted to make sure we have options. Maybe we’ll go to the movies after.

Tonight I’m headed to the gym to continue my journey. Your old man is going to look awesome when they hand you over to me in the hospital and I have to take my picture with no shirt on. I’m also gonna look dope in Vegas for Aunt Lisa’s wedding in October. I doubt you care, but I care and since I’m writing the letters, you have to deal.

I have to go to a meeting, but I might check back in afterwards. I felt like I had some wisdom to share but now I can’t remember what it was.

Love you big time,

Dad