7.30.19
My one Darby –
How’s my tiny person today? Mom had a rough go of it last night and was up from 3-5:30. She had a really sore throat and I woke up to her eating yogurt in the middle of the night with the tv on. Luckily, I was able to get right back to sleep or her ass woulda been in the jackpot. She’s staying home to rest up and according to the urgent care she went to this morning it doesn’t look like she has strep throat, which is good.
Today it’s approximately a billion degrees. It actually isn’t that hot, but it feels disgusting out. As usual, I’m writing you from work. I listened to Where The Light Is on the way in, classic live album by Mayer. And I have no idea how this will end up shaking out but I realized this morning that there are some sneakers/shoes that you love and you buy and then years later you question your taste. I guess it’s growth, I don’t know. I say that because today I’m wearing my olive Nike Presto Uncaged and I’m pretty sure I don’t really like them.
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I don’t know, when I see them in a picture I still kinda dig em, but on my foot I question. Maybe it’s because I’m wearing them with a blue shirt, and I feel like a big idiot. Yesterday and today I’m just out of it.
Yesterday I found out that if we decided to move to Georgia and I relocated within BCW I would be able to keep my current salary. Which is pretty crazy. A NY salary would go pretty far down there, and mom probably wouldn’t have to work, which would make both of us very happy. BUT there’s already so much change coming up welcoming you into the world. For reference, at 31 I’m an Account Director making $110K. In my 20’s I obsessed over the idea of making 6 figures and set a goal to make that much by 30. I got it by the skin of my teeth, landing this job in September of 2017 with a month left at 30. My next goal is $250K by 42. I think that would allow us to live comfortably, save some money and feel a bit of security. Who knows, maybe by the time you read this, these numbers will seem small. As I’ve said in other letters, just documenting the here and now because I’m always fascinated when I think about who my parents were when I was younger.
Over time you forget so much and things seem less important with distance. You’ll see. Things that consume you and feel like the most important aspect of your life have a way of floating away. When you’re little, it’ll be about what toys you get or what food you don’t want to eat and mom and I will seem like the bad guys. And then when you’re a little older it’ll be kids in school who get in the way of you getting your way. In your teens you’ll meet a boy or girl and think they’re your soulmate (full disclosure, they might be). But realistically one of you will break the other one’s heart and for that stretch of time, it will seem like your whole world is ending. And then you’ll go to college and meet a new bunch of people who make that relationship seem so insignificant. It’s not, because it will help shape who you are but it’s a never-ending cycle. I’m telling you this to give you some perspective. Nothing is as bad as it seems. But definitely embrace the happiness in life and soak it in. If you’re anything like me, you’ll be real sentimental and long for your memories. Life ain’t short but it sure is small.
That’s my wisdom for today, I hope it helps.
Love you big time,
Dad
P.S. I need a haircut
